Endings and beginnings

12 March, 2013

I have had a recurring nightmare for a couple of weeks now. It involves coming back to our house after leaving it free for our Estate Agent to show around potential buyers, and finding everything still impeccably immaculate, EXCEPT for an ENORMOUS pair of maternity knickers slap bang in the middle of the floor.

There is actually nothing too dream-like or implausible about this nightmare. We have had several viewings a day for ten days. I have been almost OCD in my cleaning up; “Oh, Ramona? You want a TOY, you say? Like to play with? Ah. Okay. Here is a tractor. Have fun.” *5 minutes later* “Right, er, you finished with that?” *Tidies away*

AND Ramona loves to drape my underwear around her cute self. She will appear with my giant pants on her head, bras hung over her neck. She could easily have diligently found and placed a pair in perfect view, ready to greet any potential buyers.

Muddy cuddles for Ramona during Tim's game of rugby

Muddy cuddles for Ramona during Tim’s game of rugby

However. It didn’t happen. And you know what? We got an offer and our house is off the market!! WOOHOOO. Good bye, Big-Knickers-in-Public-View-Dream.

I am thrilled that it could all be wrapped up before the womb-baby makes an appearance in April, with a moving out date of late July. We will miss our home hugely, we have made every single nook and cranny our own. And we love Camberwell. It’s people, cafes, parks, and especially the weekly car boot sale. (Just LOOK at this retro French bottle I got last week for FIFTY PEE!!!)

Vintage French Milk Bottle

The ducks! The snow!

We will be pretty forlorn to finally close our freshly painted door on this place.

And then,  I had my last day at work last week. I took up my first role with Oxfam almost six years ago, would you believe it, quickly finding myself enveloped in a kind crowd of kindred, hopeful spirits. It was a quiet farewell, thriftily sneaking some scrummy posh M and S cakes into the pub and then out for Dim Sum. Gone are my days of channelling Whitney in seedy Soho karaoke bars. (Jokes, those days will never be over, just on pause while this womb-baby battles with my achey pelvis, too-stretchy ligaments and weary brain!)

Gosh, you know, I could write a book called What Not to Say Outloud. At the start of my last team meeting someone asked “Are you sad to be leaving?” – in response I blurted out “Noooo, not at all.” I had to quickly backtrack as it isn’t that I am HAPPY to be off, it is just that, despite LOVING my job utterly, I feel ready, completely ready, for this next stage.

Some of the beautiful tulips giving to me by my colleagues in my new bottle

Some of the beautiful tulips giving to me by my colleagues in my new bottle. Overly excited about my new bottle? Probably, yep.


Often when something ends, a spark of something new commences elsewhere. My grand finale at work obviously means that this week is my first of my maternity leave, and now I have just a few weeks left until I am a mother of two.

We spent Sunday, Mother’s Day, at an Active Birth Workshop led by a wonderful friend. We shipped Ramona off to our other dear chums up the hill, they have a tribe of kids whom she is in love with and a cat to boot (as in “as well” rather than “one you can kick”.)

It was so brilliant having a day for Tim and I to really focus on this new little soul we are bringing into the world, and to talk through the birth we would like rather than just assuming blithely that we would rest on decisions made 2 and a half years ago.

We are planning a water birth at home, with lots of relaxing and hypno shizzle, and also probably an orgasm. (Yeah, it TOTALLY can happen, I saw a video of it, yeah.)

I really recommend, if you are pregnant, taking a day out to do something with Janet Balaskas or one of her trainers. There is so much incredible info about hormones, relaxation methods, pelvis movements to delve into. It will leave you even more certain that our bodies are perfectly formed to give birth to our babies. Spending some time reflecting on this sure belief I have in my body was brilliant.

I am spending this first week in Gloucestershire with my sister’s gorgeous family. Ramona is in her complete element having cousins on hand for constant playing and snuggling.

And then back to London where I am going to loll around all day, doing yoga, allowing my neo-cortex to retreat and let my inner cave woman appear ready to embrace the wilds of childbirth. So if I blog some complete nonsense (me?? Blogging nonsense??!!) over the next wee while, blame nature.

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  • Sonya Cisco 12 March, 2013 at 7:22 am

    Congrats on the house offer! You are looking fab-u-lous Mrs! I planned 3 water births- first I was I’ll so couldn’t have it, second -they were filling the pool when he was born, third was Far too quick to even think hat far, Still, mustn’t grumble, labour of a whole hour is really not so bad! 🙂

    • Lucy 12 March, 2013 at 1:07 pm

      An hour?!!! Heeheeee how cool. I need to go a bit longer than that to cram in the orgasm…

  • Molly - Mother's Always Right 12 March, 2013 at 7:32 am

    Such an exciting time. But, really, an ORGASM during birth? Seriously?! Hope you enjoy the next phase and immerse yourself in the joy and contentment of the preparations. x

    • Lucy 12 March, 2013 at 1:08 pm

      Ha, yeah, WORD. Thank you Molly, already enjoying it 🙂

  • Margot Darling 12 March, 2013 at 7:37 am

    Brilliant news about house! We had an offer after 3 days and CAN’T WAIT to move out in July! What a beautiful bump – exciting times for you all xx

    • Lucy 12 March, 2013 at 1:09 pm

      After three daya pheweeeee! Congratulations! Those ten days felt like a lifetime, so glad it is over.

  • Jo T 12 March, 2013 at 8:25 am

    I actually can’t believe you said that out loud.

    • Lucy 12 March, 2013 at 1:09 pm

      Could write a book, I tell ya 🙂

  • Bake 12 March, 2013 at 8:55 am

    You look AMAZING!
    Congratulations on the house – can’t wait to hear about your future plans, bet they are exciting 🙂
    Would love a water birth at home next time (whenever that is!) so will be curious to hear how you found it.
    Look after yourself these next few weeks 🙂

    • Lucy 12 March, 2013 at 1:11 pm

      Thank you!
      Will be sure to update, we got the pool up last time it itade me a leeetle too relaxed. Hoping we get to have baby in it this time!

  • Jen aka The Mad House 12 March, 2013 at 2:35 pm

    You look stunning Lucy. I wish you well in all that you do. How exciting and marvelous

  • Allie Jane Young 12 March, 2013 at 5:27 pm

    Well done on the house move! So what are you going to do then? I think I have missed that block. You look lovely, I feel well poop! My ankles have swelled up. C section whay !!! The joys of having a tiny pelvis !!! Does Tim have to put your socks on?

    • Lucy 14 March, 2013 at 11:54 am

      Tut tut, there must be a post you have not read??! Haha. We are travelling around in the camper van from August – October. And then, um, who knows. A big move!

  • Capture by Lucy 12 March, 2013 at 9:02 pm

    Oh my goodness – you are a pregnancy advert for the perfect bump!

    • Lucy 14 March, 2013 at 11:54 am

      Haha, it does seem quite bowling ball ish! Much more than with Ramona. MUST be a boy!

  • Joanna 13 March, 2013 at 12:31 pm

    You look amazing! Enjoy your maternity leave sounds like you’ve got lots of lovely things planned

    • Lucy 14 March, 2013 at 11:55 am

      Yes, am enjoying it already! So nice to have this freedom for a few weeks 🙂

  • Gill Crawshaw 14 March, 2013 at 10:28 am

    That’s great news on the house! Although sad you wouldn’t wait about ten years for us to save up the money to buy it 😉 Such a lovely bump. Enjoy the pre-baby maternity time, I would say get lots of naps but is that ever possible with your second? x

    • Lucy 14 March, 2013 at 11:56 am

      Yeah, sorry about that!! Hehe. Hope you find somewhere perfect – you will, you will.
      I have had 2 naps this week! *high fives*

  • sarah 17 March, 2013 at 8:43 pm

    Lucy, pray tell, where is the weekly car boot sale? i am jealous of your bottle for sure-o xx

    • Lucy 20 March, 2013 at 7:05 pm

      It is at Dulwich Hamlet football club, Sundays at 11. It is ACE! Especially for kids stuff.
      (Although, like all car boots, sometimes it is rubbish. So be prepared hahaha.)