Attachment parenting, Parenting


15 January, 2012

BIG day tomorrow! After 14 months of blissful maternity leave I am heading back to work.

My feelings are a tangle of nervousness, excitement, sadness and anticipation – a mix felt by most of the millions of mums returning to work I imagine. It has been a bit of a rollercoaster to get here- a year ago I looked towards this day with a pragmatic sense of “it’ll be fine”, then I swerved into panic; “I can not leave her!” (and spent hours writing business plans and creating logos for a career that I could do with Ramona slung on my back. Trust me breastmilk ice cream is not the weirdest thing a mumpreuneur could come up with) now fortunately I have arrived at a more balanced place of  “It will be hard but also fun and fulfilling.” *Smiles cheesily and poses for the government’s “Back to Work Mums!” pamphlet*

I am fortunate in that I don’t HAVE to work my two and a half days a week, it would be so hard to have this choice out of your hands for financial reasons. And for Ramona to be with my husband for half the week- what a balanced young women this will make her! It’s pretty jammy that we get to practice a parenting/ working model split exactly down the middle (don’t you just love how I am using the word Work as if parenting ISN’T up there with the hardest work evs!)

I have thought for the last few months that my primary reason for going back is because I didn’t want my career to halt, and to then have to start from scratch post offspringing. But today I feel that my reasons for returning are deeper than that – it is because I am passionate about making the world a bit of a brighter place and my work gives me a different way to do this. (With parenting being one of the fundamental way of doing it, of course.) I have found this last joyous year of motherhood to be one of the least cynical and least disenchanted times of my life and I hope I can take that into my nine to five. To see my job as a vocation, and to see the eradication of extreme global poverty as totally doable. (Extreme Global Poverty? Meh!  One time I got out the house with a baby with two matching socks, a picnic, my phone AND my oyster card AND made my train!)

But still…

My heart just about leaps out of my mouth when I imagine going a day without her little cheeky face within kissing distance.

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  • Andrew 15 January, 2012 at 9:26 pm

    I am about half way through a book called “half a wife” which is all about getting the right balance between parenting and paid work for a family.

    The “wife”in the title is non gender specific (its a terrible title in my opinion) the book has some really interesting ideas about how to make the balance….both in an individual family but also how legislation could be changed to make the uk more family friendly (especially for men – where “flexible working” tends to be frowned upon). If you can get a copy I’d definitely recommend it.

    • lulastic 15 January, 2012 at 9:35 pm

      It sounds interesting. It’s astonishing how many people say they would love our situation- often the dads are super keen to get more time parenting eh. Tim’s work have just been awesome.

  • Hania 15 January, 2012 at 9:59 pm

    Well Lulu, we are thinking of you and praying for you through this transitional time. I reckon you guys have a great balance sorted and that your little munchkin thrives as a result of being your baby. Look forward to watching this space as you find the right path for you and your family and know we are missing you loads. Big hugs and smooches especially to the little lilypopop

    • lulastic 19 January, 2012 at 9:56 am

      Thanks Hania, it went SO well. Couldn’t have gone better. HURRAH!

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